Random Ramblings, #9

Bookish Ramblings

1. I’m still reading my NetGalley bookI like it, don’t get me wrong. I just haven’t read in a few days due to anxiety. 

2. I kind of went a little hold crazy at the library. I mean, whatever, there are a lot of new books I want to read, and I’m not letting myself buy any more books until I have a job. 

Writing Ramblings

1. I finally got a new journal.  I’ve mentioned it before, but I have trouble writing when I’m on the computer. I get distracted with this blog, with google, with social media—pretty much with everything. So hopefully this helps me get into the zone.

2. I also get distracted by my husband. Okay, mostly it’s the television. But I find that I have a hard time writing when my husband is at home, yet I feel the most creative at night…which is obviously when he’s home. I probably just need to separate myself for like an hour or so, but I always feel guilty, which is absolutely ridiculous. I need to get over it. 

Personal Ramblings

1. I had three interviews this week. One was with an employment agency and two were with jobs I’ve applied to recently. I feel like I’m getting better at this interview thing, but I can’t help but look back and think about all the dumb things I said. It’s a little obsessive, really. I’m actually starting to realize that my anxiety is a little debilitating, and I think I need to see someone about it because I desperately need to learn to manage it better. But honestly, the thought terrifies me (especially the idea of being prescribed medicine for it–I’m so weird about medicine. I pretty much only take it if I’m dying). 

2. Driving in San Diego isn’t actually that scary. This is a little silly, but I was actually terrified of driving in a big city, mostly because of the highway. This mostly stems from my experiences of driving in Tulsa. Tulsa’s highways are AWFUL, mostly because the ramps to get on are REALLY short (like they pretty much end right when you get on the highway), so there’s not much time to merge safely. You pretty much have to either merge immediately or stop, and neither of those are ideal situations. They were just poorly designed. Anyway, the highways here are SO MUCH BETTER. You actually have time and space to merge. IS THIS WHAT DRIVING SHOULD BE LIKE?! 

6 thoughts on “Random Ramblings, #9

  1. allyoureadislove8 says:

    Awww man anxiety is so bad, I suffer from it, and I remember after interviews, I would always focus on the negatives, but just try to focus on the good things and how well you did. For anxiety as well look into mindfulness, there are YouTube and websites that can really help! X

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  2. Jennifer @sleepingsuburb says:

    I totally relate to library holds!! I’m too broke to buy books on the whim, so the library is my main source of books 🙂
    I’m absolutely afraid of interviews. I’m not much of a talker so the aspect of selling yourself to others terrifies me. I hope you find something that will help!


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